Rain, rain, go away.

Hello and happy Tuesday! It is POURING in Boston. Hope everyone is staying dry!

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately – mostly because I continuously get the feeling of being “stuck” in my current situation. Fact of the matter is, I am not “stuck,” I am just bored. Bored with work, unfulfilled and still have yet to find a career that I’d like to grow into. I have SO many different interests and I am beginning to realize that I have never allowed myself to hone in on what I truly ENJOY doing.

There does not seem to be ONE thing that I like more than everything else, but no matter what, I always come back to the conclusion – that I would really enjoy a job where I was HELPING people directly on the regular. What I am doing now does not cut it. Scheduling meetings is fine, but not fulfilling. Filing is fine, but not fulfilling. Etc. This career path holds no true meaning for me, but it is “fine.” But the more I think about it, the more I realize that simply doing “fine,” is not how I want to live my life.

I’ve known this for a while, but I always scare myself out of making any significant change because of money, usually. Everything is just SO expensive, especially in this area. It’s insane. I’ve constantly allowed my need for financial stability to outweigh my desire to find a career that I am truly passionate about. Well, I am all done with that way of thinking. From this point forward, I am going full out. Pay cuts will be eminent, but  quality of life is so much more important to me than money. I just need to stop letting myself get distracted from that point.  It’s not worth the stress.

I am in a position now where I am single, (luckily) do not have to pay rent for at least a few more months and have all of my loans in good standing. The time is now.

Poems & stuff

I suppose it’s safe to say that I’ll post on here once a week. I’ll try to do more, but I have been slacking and I don’t want to make a promise that I can’t keep. Life gets busy. I forget to post for days, the cycle continues. I am working on that. It’s honestly amazing how easy it is to get distracted.

Life has been okay lately. I have definitely been getting myself out there more and trying to create some new, lasting friendships/relationships. I’ve met some really great people, but also some incredibly strange ones. So it goes… this process will be long and drawn out, but I am happy to report that I’m at least trying!

Anyway, on to the poetry that I’ve promised… 

  1. September days blend
    with nights that I’d rather forget
    and new memories that I’ve yet to create
    Astonishingly strange,
    foreign, even;
    but I’ve embraced this change of pace
    and if my notions serve me well,
    these regrets will soon become
    a thing of the past
  2. It’s okay to outgrow people;
    I’ve recognized that fully,
    and that’s a start, at least.
    Harder still, has been the attempt
    to reacquaint myself …with myself.
    My personality bears burdens that I do not recall
    and she can be difficult, at times

  3. An attachment still lingers,
    but not the one that most would assume.
    I’ve moved on from that.
    This one runs a whole lot deeper; 
    it’s existed for decades
    and it keeps getting stranger

  4.  I do not enjoy uncertainty
    it just seems so vicious.

Vacation things & donut day!

I am so sorry for slacking on posts. I just haven’t had the energy or attention span lately!

Okay, as promised, here’s my vacation and packing update!

So, my friends and I went to Maine for the long weekend and this is what I brought along:

 

To be honest, I think I packed more for this trip than I needed. I have yet to master minimal packing for beach trips! Here’s an itemized list of what I brought with me for 5 days on the Maine coast (including notes on what I didn’t end up wearing/using!)

1 pair of flats (dancing was planned, but we didn’t get to it! Wound up not needing them)
1 pair of sneakers (didn’t wear these once, despite that we walked all over the place!)
1 pair of boat shoes
1 pair of flip flops
1 LBD
Distressed jeans
Regular jeans
Rain coat
Sweatshirt
4 casual shirts (only wore two of them!)
2 tanks (1 dressy, 1 casual)
Bathing suit
Necessary under garments
Beach cover-up
Beach bag
Swimsuit bag
Small over-the-shoulder bag
7 pairs of socks (only used 4)
Sunscreen, shampoo and other toiletries
Some books for the beach
Phone charger

Here are a few pictures from the trip!

 

 

It was a lot of fun, but I definitely could have packed less. Lesson learned. I also bought more clothing while I was up there because I made the mistake of not keeping many fall items the last time I cleaned out my closet. Rookie mistake.

In other news, TODAY WAS DONUT DAY. It’s been a while since I’ve treated myself to that! But the fall flavors are out now and I couldn’t help myself!

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I’ve been going to zumba 3 or 4 times a week for the last month or so and I am LOVING IT. I have already lost 5 lbs! This Apple Cider donut probably didn’t help with my weight loss goals, but it was worth it!

What else has been going on… I am EAGER to make the jump in careers from Finance to Human Services. Only a matter of time now. Please cross your fingers for me.

I’ve done a lot of growing, mentally, this last month. It has been 3 months now, since that breakup I went through and I am now just starting to realize that’s I’ll truly be OKAY. It’s a refreshing feeling and it get’s me really excited for the future.

That’s all for now!

THANK GOD IT’S WEDNESDAY

Hey. What’s up? Hello. I keep taking unintentional hiatuses. Sorry. These last few weeks have been slightly insane. I can’t complain, but I am going to say that I need way more sleep than I have been getting.

Where do I even begin? How many days has it been? Oh, right! I went to the Cape for an overnight last week! It was fun, but very humid! It was great to see my family and get some beach time in! I packed super light, because I was there for less than 24 hours, but I promised you an itemized list, so here it is!

 

 

  • 1 maxi dress for our annual family dinner (which doubled as a beach cover up for the following day)
  • 1 pair of shorts + a tank top to sleep in
  • 1 pair of “fancy” sandals to wear to the family dinner (which doubled as beach shoes for the following day)
  • 1 pair of jeans + 1 tank top + boat shoes which I wore during my travel time down and drive back (outfit pictured above)
  • 1 (very) small over the shoulder bag to accessorize my dinner outfit & hold my money, card & phone
  • Necessary undergarments (duh) x3
  • 1 Hoodie because this is New England and you just never friggen know
  • Beach towel
  • Baseball hat
  • Bathing suit
  • Phone charger
  • A book to read at the beach
  • minimal make-up & personal hygiene/hair care items (cover-up, sunscreen, mascara, foundation, toothbrush and travel-sized toothpaste, face wash and 2-in-1 shampoo, hair straightener, comb and deodorant

The Cape is ALWAYS beautiful and I wish I could have spent more time down there, but I am glad I got to go. Here’s some pictures!

 


What else? OH YEAH! I went to the Alkaline Trio show in Boston on Saturday. I have been DYING to see them play! They have remained one of my favorite bands for many years. Here’s a video!

In other news, I’ve also been going to zumba four times a week and I LOVE IT! Finally finding a way to work out that I can get excited about makes me very excited about my fitness goals! I used to dread the gym, but going to the zumba studio instead has really changed that for me! I get to shake my butt to get back in shape; I am living the dream! haha!

I think that is all for now. I have my last “big” vacation coming up on Thursday of next week! That day can’t arrive soon enough! Very much looking forward to spending 5 days on the beach in Maine! I’ll do a “what I packed” update and all of that for that trip as well! Until then, enjoy the rest of your week/weekend!

 

The fog.

This weather is weird. It’s kind of eerie, but I kind of like it, because I’m strange like that.

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I am sorry that I haven’t been updating much. It has been a weird month and then some.

Things to look forward to? I am going to the Cape for an overnight tomorrow. I could use the break. Really feels like I need a day to reset & be around my family and the beach. Friday is ladies night! I am going out with my girl friends to eat, dance and be merry! Saturday will be great too because I FINALLY get to see Alkaline Trio, which I’ve been trying to check off my concert bucket list for years! Good things coming up!

In other news, my last overnight shift is a week from Saturday. I am excited to get my weekends back and look forward to not working 7 days a week.

Short update, I know, but at least it’s something! Fun update(s) to come. I’ll post about my Cape trip & how I pack light for an overnight! I will also post about the concert and hopefully get some great pictures of Boston on Friday while I am out too. Until then, enjoy the rest of your week!

#Goals

Hi everyone! Happy Tuesday!

A quick update: I’ve put my notice in for my overnight shifts. My last one will be August 25th. I took on too much and I am realizing that. I am upset with myself, but also need to be realistic. I can’t work 7 days a week. It’s just not something I can swing anymore. This is for my own sanity.

That being said, and since I am truly doing my best to work on myself and accomplishing my own personal goals, I’ve been thinking a lot about traveling; 2019 and 2020 are going to be full of adventures with friends & solo excursions, that is the goal. As a gift to myself, I am attempting to pay off my credit card and a solid chunk of my remaining car payments as well, before Christmas/New Years this year. Money may be tight up until then, but getting that debt off of my shoulders will absolutely help in the long run and it will give me the opportunity to really save for these vacations.

On the bucket list for 2019:

  • Northern California to visit friends at/near Yosemite
  • Southern California to visit family
  • Jamaica, with friends
  • New Orleans with friends
  • CAMPING ANYWHERE.

On the bucket list for 2020:

  • Ireland with friends, to celebrate our 30th birthdays!
  • Germany and/or Holland to visit friends
  • CAMPING. I love it and I just don’t do it enough

We’ll have to see how this all plays out, but these goals are absolutely do-able and I intend to pursue them while I can. Let the adventure(s) begin!